After Three Straight Night Outs

After three nights of going out (going out = eating, partying, coffee, just sitting, eating, chatting, coffee, and more eating, and more coffee), I am stuck in front of the pc. And I am stuck by choice. Just uploaded 300+ pics from going out on the 26th, 28th, 29th, and 30th.

I am really tired. Perspectives do change when you grow up. Before, the Christmas break was just a so-so vacation time for me. Now, I party hard, because these are times that shouldn't be missed. Take for example my night out with my HS buddies. We didn't "party" as hard as before, but we endured the night till dawn. It's been 4 long years that we haven't seen each other. Well, they see one another, it's just that I live and work in the mountains (and I'm proud of it).

2007 is about to close in 5 hours time and here are my new year's resolutions. And I mean them!


1. Spend less time with Renji. He's taking too much of my time.



2. Lose weight and run more. Already bought some more running apparel


3. Prepare for my MS. January is the deadline for applications.


4. Be more industrious in cleaning up H6.


5. Spend less and save more.


And I think that's it. Five major things I need to do for 2008.

More Gadgets = More Busy [Non-techie Readable]

(I dunno if I should put sic after "More Busy", since busier is the gramatically correct word to use.)

DS = Nintendo Dual Screen gaming console
SD = Secure Digital card, used in most phones now. MicroSD = smaller SD.
USB = Universal Serial Bus. Most of you guys are familiar with USB. PCs have USB ports for printers, computer mice, and other peripherals.

Ok.
Yeah, been busy lately. Not with work. Not with my "usual extracurriculars" either.
Been busy with "Renji". Renji is my new crimson/black DS, hence the name (watch Bleach for the reference).



Just what are the things I did with Renji?
1. Installed 20+ games with my 2G microSD card. Nintendogs, Bleach, and Zelda take a lot of my time.
2. Since I have a Revolution 4 DS (R4DS) cartridge, I play my fave music with Renji too. (Who said PSP can only do it?)
3. I bought a new (DS) bag. Not only for Renji, but for all my other gizmos. It currently "houses" Renji, my camera, my phone, the charger of my DS, charger for the cam's batteries, USB for microSD, my USB flash disk, SD card for microSD, R4DS cartridge, and USB cable for my cam.

Since, I am too in to Renji now (nyaks, parang lovers), I'm gonna jog with Ton later at 5pm. I think more of non-DS activities will ought to balance out things.

Tomorrow's gonna be ICS' Christmas party from 1-4. Crusade's Christmas party is also gonna be tomorrow at 6.

Our family day out is on Saturday. Planning to watch movie or/and shop, and eat. Dunno where though. Could be Gateway, Greenhills, or Libis. Or combibations of those places.

Christmas Service on Sunday at 9. And Church Christmas party at 5, same day.

No Encrypts

This piece has no encrypts, no rhymes.
Decided to write this right now because I'm tired.
Tired of crying, tired of waiting, tired of performing my duties and even more.
Although, I know after this, or even right now, I am crying, I am waiting, and performing my duties to a deeper extent.Some, duties that I don't even need to fill.
I volunteered to fill those spots (yes, that's with an s, in plural form) because I saw the urgency to have them filled. I'm a teacher alright.
I don't have kids yet. But being the eldest in a house of five makes me a dad. Well, that's what I think. I'm a dad alright.
I don't have kids yet. But being the teacher of sixteen students and overseeing them in an outside school activity makes me a dad. Well, that's what I think. I'm a dad alright.

To you, whom I want to reach but I can't because you wouldn't want me to... Three dots is what I leave.

To you, who just passed by after descending the stairs, and saw me standing by the first door... I'm taking it slow. It breaks me, but that I gotta accept. Healing isn't easy, yeah I know.

To you, whom I always count on. I know you're praying for me. Though our communication is less, I know we're still accountable to each other. Sorry for all the rants. I wasn't even able to ask your needs. How selfish of me...

To you who doesn't even reply and continues on coming in at nights, mornings even, I don't know what to do. Is your smile a mask or your words a curtain?

To You who hear me out always. I know You are hearing out. I know that Your pain is greater than mine.

This piece has no encrypts, no rhymes.

Shoreline

Tuesday before the Wednesday that marked the 30th,
My heart jumped upon your reply.
I saw land, but it was no easy swim.
Exhaustion from 210 days and nights before this shoreline.

On that dawn before the night of frost, my feet touched sand.
Yes, I know things are hard to mend. Have pondered that in the sea.
Yet, the Cross is Mighty, He should be praised.
Fix came on Week 30.

As I write, no more I could add.
I should stop counting weeks, I've reached the shore.
I still pray, we can bring it back, or even more.
Fix came on Week 30.

some snippets

1. I colored the 4 albums of the 4 LTI days light blue, orange, yellow, and pink. Yes, the 4 LTI colors for this year (well, at least the shirts show them).

2. Masipag akong maglagay ng caption. Imagin 5 hours ako naguupload, nageedit at naglalagay ng caps sa 500+ pics.

3. Superstar si Polar Bear. Gayundin sina FTJ, Jay Manalo, Smokey Manoloto, Yakult Malay boy, Paris Hilton, at Deither Ocampo. Pero matindi ang pagkakapanalo ni Ton as Jay Manalo.

4. Hindi ganon kalamig sa Tagaytay. Pero malamig sa CDC.

5. Ang galing ng boses ng mga taga-CAP. Veveng, Donna, Amen, Carol, Eugi (tama ba spelling?) at Vincent.

6. Si Jeft ay parang Shaolin maglaro ng Ultimate.

7. Friendly daw ako. I beg to differ. Wehe.

8. May mas sasanguine pa ba kay Josh ng ADMU?

9. Grabe ang impact ng LTI. With everyone on fire.

10. Ang gugulo ng mga leadership. Baka wala ng leadership next LTI. wehe.

11. Bibo ng Marasigan brothers. Bagging 1 separate award each and one joint award.

12. Masaya siguro sa Davao. Kailangan na mag-ipon.

13. Masaya laruin ang foxes and sheep na game pag marami, at ang category game pag may prize.

14. This is the best LTI ever.

I always commit the mistake of not writing my toughts when they come at me.
I made a mistake, twenty eight weeks ago, alright. I made a piece about the twenty seventh beacuse my heart was heavy; the sorrow still lingers. The sorrow still lingers, coming back at nights, coming back at days. Nights while I pray; days while I teach. Yes, I teach "youngsters", yet I still haven't completely taught myself. Of course, I know, teaching myself is no business of mine... there's Someone I need to learn from. Someone who calms my tempest, Someone who calms the seas. I always await for the day that I see some shoreline from this sea that I'm in. In that great network I said people only see my shore; oceans hold the deepest trenches. In that great network you perfectly describe how I always feel. Those haunting nights and days when I remember. My grief remains even if I conceal it. I tried to conceal my grief this last high tide with our mentor.Yet, I wasn't good at it. My grief showed, alright. That time was the hardest. I didn't know the signs. Is it a sign of a fix coming soon, or a fix coming never? By the time the day of confrontation comes I hope I recognize the signs when they come at me.
I always commit the mistake of not writing my toughts when they come at me.
You watched my tribute. You haven't read Week 27.

Week 27

Restless, my heart can't find its quiet.
Twenty seventh week is one week more than a half year.
It has been long, but few had been my outlet;
Less riddles in this piece, yet, some points may still be unclear.

It's not about me, it's about you, this coming Wednesday;
Wednesday it was, 27 weeks ago upon this Wednesday of yours.
A gaze is hard to do, a word is hard to say.
Inward is chaos, even if the outward seems just a normal course.

"Abba", I call, I pray that you are alright... standing.
I've left a deep scar, mine is a bleeding wound.
I pray you're doing fine, it's right that I'm suffering.
What would happen? A fix coming never or a fix coming soon.

I remember, I'm not certain since my sight then was poor.
Was running, blisters in the making, your group then saw me.
Your group jeered, thought I heard your voice too, I'm not sure.
I hope you did, I hope I was able to clearly see.

But I recall too, moments of same magnet poles.
The night before our mentor's Day; some night before Five Candles.
Bullet of indifference. A bleeding wound in my soul.
Nights I pray, this unquiet heart to hush, uneasy heart to handle.

It's not about me, it's about you, this coming Wednesday;
A gaze is hard to do, a word is hard to say.
Restless, my heart can't find its quiet.
It has been long, but few had been my outlet.
Don't know when you'll read this, don't know if you'll ever do.
I pray you're alright, I pray this message of mine you'll get.