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Decided to write this right now because I'm tired.
Tired of crying, tired of waiting, tired of performing my duties and even more.
Although, I know after this, or even right now, I am crying, I am waiting, and performing my duties to a deeper extent.Some, duties that I don't even need to fill.
I volunteered to fill those spots (yes, that's with an s, in plural form) because I saw the urgency to have them filled. I'm a teacher alright.
I don't have kids yet. But being the eldest in a house of five makes me a dad. Well, that's what I think. I'm a dad alright.
I don't have kids yet. But being the teacher of sixteen students and overseeing them in an outside school activity makes me a dad. Well, that's what I think. I'm a dad alright.

To you, whom I want to reach but I can't because you wouldn't want me to... Three dots is what I leave.

To you, who just passed by after descending the stairs, and saw me standing by the first door... I'm taking it slow. It breaks me, but that I gotta accept. Healing isn't easy, yeah I know.

To you, whom I always count on. I know you're praying for me. Though our communication is less, I know we're still accountable to each other. Sorry for all the rants. I wasn't even able to ask your needs. How selfish of me...

To you who doesn't even reply and continues on coming in at nights, mornings even, I don't know what to do. Is your smile a mask or your words a curtain?

To You who hear me out always. I know You are hearing out. I know that Your pain is greater than mine.

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Shoreline

Tuesday before the Wednesday that marked the 30th,
My heart jumped upon your reply.
I saw land, but it was no easy swim.
Exhaustion from 210 days and nights before this shoreline.

On that dawn before the night of frost, my feet touched sand.
Yes, I know things are hard to mend. Have pondered that in the sea.
Yet, the Cross is Mighty, He should be praised.
Fix came on Week 30.

As I write, no more I could add.
I should stop counting weeks, I've reached the shore.
I still pray, we can bring it back, or even more.
Fix came on Week 30.

some snippets

1. I colored the 4 albums of the 4 LTI days light blue, orange, yellow, and pink. Yes, the 4 LTI colors for this year (well, at least the shirts show them).

2. Masipag akong maglagay ng caption. Imagin 5 hours ako naguupload, nageedit at naglalagay ng caps sa 500+ pics.

3. Superstar si Polar Bear. Gayundin sina FTJ, Jay Manalo, Smokey Manoloto, Yakult Malay boy, Paris Hilton, at Deither Ocampo. Pero matindi ang pagkakapanalo ni Ton as Jay Manalo.

4. Hindi ganon kalamig sa Tagaytay. Pero malamig sa CDC.

5. Ang galing ng boses ng mga taga-CAP. Veveng, Donna, Amen, Carol, Eugi (tama ba spelling?) at Vincent.

6. Si Jeft ay parang Shaolin maglaro ng Ultimate.

7. Friendly daw ako. I beg to differ. Wehe.

8. May mas sasanguine pa ba kay Josh ng ADMU?

9. Grabe ang impact ng LTI. With everyone on fire.

10. Ang gugulo ng mga leadership. Baka wala ng leadership next LTI. wehe.

11. Bibo ng Marasigan brothers. Bagging 1 separate award each and one joint award.

12. Masaya siguro sa Davao. Kailangan na mag-ipon.

13. Masaya laruin ang foxes and sheep na game pag marami, at ang category game pag may prize.

14. This is the best LTI ever.

I always commit the mistake of not writing my toughts when they come at me.
I made a mistake, twenty eight weeks ago, alright. I made a piece about the twenty seventh beacuse my heart was heavy; the sorrow still lingers. The sorrow still lingers, coming back at nights, coming back at days. Nights while I pray; days while I teach. Yes, I teach "youngsters", yet I still haven't completely taught myself. Of course, I know, teaching myself is no business of mine... there's Someone I need to learn from. Someone who calms my tempest, Someone who calms the seas. I always await for the day that I see some shoreline from this sea that I'm in. In that great network I said people only see my shore; oceans hold the deepest trenches. In that great network you perfectly describe how I always feel. Those haunting nights and days when I remember. My grief remains even if I conceal it. I tried to conceal my grief this last high tide with our mentor.Yet, I wasn't good at it. My grief showed, alright. That time was the hardest. I didn't know the signs. Is it a sign of a fix coming soon, or a fix coming never? By the time the day of confrontation comes I hope I recognize the signs when they come at me.
I always commit the mistake of not writing my toughts when they come at me.
You watched my tribute. You haven't read Week 27.

Week 27

Restless, my heart can't find its quiet.
Twenty seventh week is one week more than a half year.
It has been long, but few had been my outlet;
Less riddles in this piece, yet, some points may still be unclear.

It's not about me, it's about you, this coming Wednesday;
Wednesday it was, 27 weeks ago upon this Wednesday of yours.
A gaze is hard to do, a word is hard to say.
Inward is chaos, even if the outward seems just a normal course.

"Abba", I call, I pray that you are alright... standing.
I've left a deep scar, mine is a bleeding wound.
I pray you're doing fine, it's right that I'm suffering.
What would happen? A fix coming never or a fix coming soon.

I remember, I'm not certain since my sight then was poor.
Was running, blisters in the making, your group then saw me.
Your group jeered, thought I heard your voice too, I'm not sure.
I hope you did, I hope I was able to clearly see.

But I recall too, moments of same magnet poles.
The night before our mentor's Day; some night before Five Candles.
Bullet of indifference. A bleeding wound in my soul.
Nights I pray, this unquiet heart to hush, uneasy heart to handle.

It's not about me, it's about you, this coming Wednesday;
A gaze is hard to do, a word is hard to say.
Restless, my heart can't find its quiet.
It has been long, but few had been my outlet.
Don't know when you'll read this, don't know if you'll ever do.
I pray you're alright, I pray this message of mine you'll get.

Case 1: No classes --> Pain in the ass
HS: No classes = yipee!
College: (well at least for me as a college student), spells make-up classes
Instructors: "My schedule's torn!!! X( "

It's a good thing I scheduled the submission of exercises on Wednesday next week. But still, my Thursday classes will suffer for the lack of preparations for next Friday's exams.

Case 2: Online rants
To make the long story short:
It came to me that my CMSC 150 lab classes are nearing their end. This was when my roommate, Sir Dulds, told me about the ongoing thread in yupielbi.org
Under one thread entitled "Worst subject ever"in the acads topics of the forums, CMSC 150, which I am teaching right now, was one of the most popular answers. Some were having a hard time, some hated the subject, some both. What caught my attention? This certain post:

sa ngayon cmsc150, olats na olats ako dun. T__T di ako marunong magprogram sa yacas! ~__~ - "Buknoy"

...
I clicked on Buknoy, and voila, user Buknoy's info was listed down... He is a current student of mine.
What made the series of events more intense was when I saw him in the ICS corridors the same afternoon...

(heart beat** heart beat**)

Trouble for Buknoy? Nah.... read on...

Of course, as a teacher, it hurts to see such comments. What made me not loose my cool when I was scanning the forums was the date of Buknoy's post: Aug 08 2006, 10:56PM. Yes, he posted the entry last year, and he is a second taker of the course.

Nothing happened when I saw him. I just confirmed that it was his post and that he posted it last year. No harm done.



Sure there'll be an action point in my part to check who knows and who doesn't. Perhaps a special lab exercise customized specially for every individual student... Yeah, that'll do.

13/100

Out of the 100 students I teach in 4 CMSC 150 sections (D-1L, EF-1L, EF-3L, EF-4L), here's the list of the 13 that passed the 1st Exam. Kudos to you guys. Keep it up!

Rank(No. of people sharing rank)	Passer :)	Section	Score/75
1.5(2)	Kevin Palis	D-1L	57
4(3)	Melody Monterona	EF-4L	55
4(3)	Marie Yvette De Robles	EF-4L	55
4(3)	Roland Avelino	EF-4L	55
8(1)	Jeriel Paul Abayon	EF-4L	53
9(1)	Micael Andrei Diaz de Rivera	EF-1L	52
10(1)	Marciano San Diego	D-1L	51
12(3)	Patrick Dominic Menorca	EF-4L	49
15(3)	Emyrson Aragon	D-1L	48
15(3)	Alicia Balba	D-1L	48
17.5(2)	Maggie Mae Roxas	EF-1L	47
21(5)	Arrianne Joy Marteja	EF-1L	46
24(1)	Mary Grace Tagapan	EF-4L	45